I have no idea what I’m going to do since next year starts college. I’m bound to never forget the impact Jessica had on my life, and I’ve promised teachers and students alike that I’ll be visiting for years to come in Barker Central. I may never convince Jessica into anything, and I’m sure that no one else will match up to her, or the ex I had before her, but seriously, I fear for my upcoming relationship status.
Love’s one of those things that can be awesome and retarded at the same time. No one “invented” love, so you’ve really got no one to blame for your own feelings but yourself. I can’t destroy my feelings for Jess, since she’s been the latest major part of my emotional life. Maybe in 11 years she’ll find me on Virtual-Reality Facebook 8.0 or whatever we’ll have by then, and ask for a nice walk or cup of coffee, if I’m still living, but who knows.
There’s always a possibility that maybe there’s a nice girl out there that doesn’t hate fat kids, bowling shirts, and suicide, and might somehow show an interest in me. I never think of this, since all girls like this end up simply using me and leaving me to bleed, but still. Also, she’d probably end up being blind, or mute… a nice Helen Keller type of girl, who has no recollection as to what makes me a bad person.
Who knows what’ll happen next. I’m sure by the time I’m through with college, I’ll be getting out of an abusive relationship, living with my best friend Matt, Jessie will be one of the biggest heartbreakers in Barker High, My ex’s will have all contracted over 3 forms of Sexually Transmitted Diseases, and the world will continue on regardless of how we like it.
Enough about love, let’s get back on a different track.
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